Fingers are actually crossed.
And it got me thinking about a friendship that ended quite a bit ago. First of all, she lived with us. Then the moment I realized it really had ended, our friendship had really disintegrated, though, was when we had to take Panda to the emergency animal hospital and I asked her to watch Zoey in a hurry. Panda had to stay overnight, and I felt so terrible that I came home sobbing uncontrollably. A real friend would have asked what happened, am I okay, et cetera. Nah, she didn’t say a word and left the house to go to her boyfriend’s at 3am.
Thinking about that mess and how hurt I was then felt like a stab last night as David and I talked about it.
However, the ending of that partnership was a lesson — a real lesson for me to not put up with shit like that. I’m honest with my friends now about how I feel if I think something’s up. I communicate better. And my friendships — friendships with people I love dearly and who love me just the same — are so much better for it, because honesty and truth and respect are reciprocated.
Things like that, like that friendship and others that crumpled, just make me love my friends that much more. I think of Sarah, whom I’ve been best friends with since we were 14. My dear soulmate, Laura, with whom I fell in love at first sight. And my forever-roommate, Anya, who’s my sister in so many ways. There are other friends, of course, like at Warren Wilson, but my core best girls keep me going when I am in need, no matter what that need requires. I love David so much — he’s the love of my life — but my girlfriends add so much sparkle to my life that it’s kind of hard to contain. Like when I visited Anya recently, I thought my heart would explode. When Laura comes down here, we both consider it coming home for her; she belongs her in an ineffable way. And Sarah and I can go months without talking, but when we’re together it’s like it’s been mere minutes since we last spoke, our connection is so deeply rooted.
They’re three young women to whom I’ve clung, whom I loved, whom I’ve kissed on the head and held hands with for hours at a time. The places they hold in me are some of my tenderest nooks, and I don’t know where I’d find myself if it weren’t for their abundant love and companionship.
I really can’t stand her. She just causes problems with all her stubbornness and bigotry and hate. I don’t like scenes with her before she was made. Like, just a few things I really hate: she trusted Maryann, has consistently fucked with Sookie and her shit/life, her attitude in the fourth season and overall participation in the whole Marnie-Antonia fiasco. Once she becomes vampire she gets to be tolerable, but goddamn she sucked before that.
It always makes me laugh when people put human!tara and vampire!tara on two different planes because they are the EXACT SAME PERSON.
Her trusting Maryann had everything to do with how Tara was fucked over repeatedly by the people around her who she thought she could trust. Tara is a victim of child abuse and grew up with it and so the first person who told her mother where to go, who finally gave her a home that she felt secure in was a person she felt she could trust? Can you hardly blame her for trusting her?
I don’t remember Tara ever fucking with Sookie and her shit/life. In fact Tara’s been there for Sookie throughout her whole life, something which Sookie can’t say (and that hurts for me to say because I love Sookie) that’s for sure. Tara was the first friend Sookie ever had, Tara was the friend who didn’t waste any time in telling Sookie what a little fuck Bill was because she didn’t trust the guy with her friend, Tara’s the one who gave up her life to save Sookie and has done so even in season 6 when she was the only one who wanted to go with Sookie and Jessica in episode 1. Tara’s been there for Sookie a hell of a lot of times, more so than Eric and Bill put together.
Her attitude in the 4th season? Do you mean the season when she was being chased by Eric and Pam who wanted to kill her? I’m not quite sure what kinda attitude you wanted Tara to have with that, but she was backed into a corner and she only went to Marnie for protection and after she learned what the hell was up with that she wanted to get out as soon as goddamn possible.
Like whatever, this is your opinion but you sound like you don’t have any idea about Tara whatsoever.
She’s a bigot, plain and simple. Oh, and as soon as she realized Antonia wanted to kill vampires, she said something like, “There’s nothing I’d like to see more than those dead fucks fry.” She treated Jessica like shit, too. She’s hateful and, like I said, bigoted. That particularly bitter hate does kind of weaken when she gets made into what you call “vampire!Tara,” or whatever.
Sorry for responding. I’m just re-watching the fourth season for the billionth time (I’m a hardcore Eric-Sookie fan), and it’s been eating at me majorly and I had to vent. Didn’t mean to rustle feathers.